About Christine
My journey to patience and love
For a long, long time, I was the queen of self-help and self-denial. My personal library is filled with great titles and authors who offered THE ANSWER. I have looked for the answer by studying the major religions along with astrology and witchcraft, mysticism and paganism, nature, atheism, nihilism and narcissism. I learned "The Secret" and read "The Power of Now." I had breakthroughs and breakdowns at weekend retreats. I was an experience junkie ... questioning, lonely, and (BIG SURPRISE!) angry.
In the meantime, life happened. I went to college, got married, had children, moved several times. I also had four career transitions. This too was part of my search for THE ANSWER.
To most people and even to myself, I looked normal and successful. I was a "good" person — your typical overworked and underwhelmed wife, mother and achiever. I drank the Kool-aid for striving: doing something great, being somebody special to somebody, but missing the truth that I was already ENOUGH. All those years of emptiness and self-hatred resulted in terrible choices — affecting my life, my family and friends.
When I finally stared at the ugly truth and saw my own face, it broke me. In fact, it killed me.
Are you still seeking THE ANSWER? Do you wonder why you rage at other drivers, judge your neighbors, criticize your children or resent the person you promised to honor and cherish? Do you want to stop feeling separate, empty, anxious and angry? Would you leave addictions and striving behind for one moment of true love?
This website isn't THE ANSWER, but I humbly offer thoughts on patience and love as a signpost toward what your life is really about. Perhaps it will lead you to a place of surrender where personal status, pleasure and power are irrelevant.
Then the only answer you'll need is God’s enduring love ... in daily action through you.
~ Christine